Heartbreak

The worst feeling in the world is knowing your friend's heart is breaking but you can't do anything about it because you don't understand their battle.

Christ Wants Us to Look Up

Whenever I hear the word "hope", I think of looking up into the sky, sunlight breaking through clouds and streaming on to my face, birds chirping, and butterflies circling me, all in a field of wildflowers.
Not really, but you get the idea. Hope, to me, means "look up". For me, I have hope for things in the future. I hope that I will get accepted into BYU Provo, and I act on that hope. I have hope that I will win the Student Body Presidency election, and I act on that hope. I have hope that putting in the time to exercise will benefit me in the long term, and I act on that hope. I look forward.

This past week I read a few scriptures that taught me about hope. In John 3:14-15 it says

14. And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of man be lifted up;
15. That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life.

As Moses led the Israelites into the wilderness, many became sick. They begged Moses for a cure, so he gave them one. He put a serpent on a stick and raised it up. Anyone who had the faith to look up at the serpent would be healed. Although it was so simple, many did not look and died. As John 3 explains, the serpent was symbolic of Jesus Christ being raised upon the cross. Anyone who looks to him will be saved.
There are a few words I want to highlight. Lifted and raised, look, saved, believe.
Christ was raised on the cross. As his disciples, Mary, and others looked up at him, they witnessed the end to the most selfless and perfect act in human history; the Atonement of Jesus Christ. When we look up to this moment in time and its continuation into our lives thousands of years later, we are saved because we believe and we believe because we act. The act is to look.

Helaman 8:15 expounds even more on this principle.

15. And as many as should look upon that serpent should live, even so as many as should look upon the Son of God with faith, having a contrite spirit, might live, even unto that life which is eternal.

Contrite spirit. Live. Faith. Eternal.

All these words have one thing in common. Hope. Humility to hope. Live by hope. Faith, Hope, and Charity. Hope and faith in an Eternal God.

In Alma 37:47 we read Alma's advice to his son Helaman.

47: And now, my son, see that ye take care of these sacred things, yea, see that ye look to God and live. Go unto this people and declare the word, and be sober. My son, farewell.

There are four pieces of advice in this verse that guide us to look up. 1. Take care of sacred things. Honor covenants made with God. Live righteously. Men, honor your priesthood duty. Women, teach the children and youth to become Christlike people. 2. Live. Live with hope in God and Jesus Christ. Live to your full potential. Live with joy. 3. Declare the word. Be a missionary. By an example of the believers, edify, uplift, and love. 4. Be sober. This is a little confusing, so to clarify we'll look at a Spanish translation. The translation is "ser justicio", or be just. Live a life of fairness, mercy, and justice. Judge righteously.

Christ does not want us to live a trodden down life. He wants us to live a life full of joy, peace, laughter, life, and hope. He wants us to look up. Through his atonement and our faith, Christ will pull us up. He will pull us out of trials into peace. He will pull us from sin to repentance. He will advocate for us in front of the father and pull us to eternal life.

Christ wants us to look up.

I Want To Be Normal

Yup. I just said that. Let's say it again. I want to be normal.
I want to hang out with my friends on a Friday night. I want to watch movies. I want to braid hair. I want to talk about boys. I want to actually see my friends. I want to know how to put on eyeshadow and what the heck highlighter is. I want to do choir. I want to do volleyball. I want to take selfies with my friends. I want to go to dances (even though I hate them). I want to do normal things.

But.

I can't.

Here's why.

I'm not normal. Even before I moved I never was normal. I don't like drama. I won't fight a friend over a boy. I love politics. I love school. I'd rather read a book than watch a movie. I'd rather exercise than watch Netflix. I don't become obsessed with a tv show.

Hahaha.

I'm not normal.

At first glance you might not think that. I'm short, wear glasses, have boring hear, laughs a lot, cries a lot. But then you get to know me. Then you realize I'm not the sweet little girl you thought I was. I'm a honey badger. I sound nice but I'm not afraid to rip you apart.
I get competetive. If I lose I will dwell on it until I win.
I'm studious. I'll get an A if it's the last thing I do.
I go after whatever I want. And I succeed. Most of the time.
I have meaningful relationships with my mentors and other adults in my life.
I have meaningful relationships with my peers.
I haven't spent the time to master one instrument, sport, or art. I can do a little bit of everything.
I don't exercise because I'm in a sport. I exercise because I want to be healthy.
I have a testimony of my savior Jesus Christ and my Father in heaven not because my parents told me to have one, but because I wanted one.
I speak another language.
I like getting up early.
I journal every day.
I love life.
I live life.

I am not normal.
My frends are not normal. But even by their standards I am not normal.
But that doesn't mean I'm strange.
I'm just not normal.

But I want to be normal.
I want people to accept me for who I am instead of accepting me for where I've been.

I want to be normal.

I am not normal.

Why can't I accept that.

Why is this going on a public blogpost instead of my journal.
Idk man.

What is wrong with me.
Nothing is wrong with me.

I'm just not normal.

That's all.

Have a nice day.

Gov and Econ A - Course in Review

Now that finals are done, prepare yourself for the storm of half-finished thoughts and ideas that I've been storing on this blog for a long time. Now that I have time, you'll be seeing a lot more. Woohoo!

Another semester has come and gone. This was probably my best semester yet (and by best I mean hardest). Four countries, new friends, life lessons, lots of maturing, Student Body Presidency, NHS Treasurer, Class President in three classes, yeah. It was good. But the best things to come out of it are probably the lessons I learned from studying the U.S government and philosophy, believes, and priorities that are behind it. (The principles listed below are a mixture of government philosophy, the U.S constitution, and personal opinion).

The Fountain of Authority

The Government's purpose, according to Kirk, is to protect our freedoms and provide order. The Government's order is to serve the people, not the other way around. The Fountain of Authority is the people. The culture. The family. We the people give the government its authority. In return, the government protects our freedoms and provides order. Anything else strays away from the purpose of the constitution and violates the 10th Amendment of the U.S constitution, which protects against the federal government doing things other than what it was authorized to do by the powers listed in the constitution. That being said, authority is not given automatically. The people have to raise their voice and give their authority. If the people are not actively involved in the government, then what is the purpose of having a constitution, checks on powers, and due process of law? We might as well be ruled instead of governed. Be the authority. Don't be authorized.

Factions

No, this is not Divergent. But the same principle is in place. Factions can be defined as "groups of people, minority or majority, united by common interests/passions. They are also groups whose passions/opinions irritate the passions/interests of others. Two or more people who see the world similarly enough on one issue create a faction. They lobby and advocate for that change which they are partial to". The only two ways to destroy factions are to destroy liberty and equalize passions. Both are awful, but in my opinion, equalize passions is the worst. To equalize passions means that everyone is the same (read: socialism). The point of civil and political society is not to make everyone the same, but instead to encourage, advocate for, and support passions, opinions, interests, and ideas in government and in society everywhere else. When there are factions, change is made, society improves, and living life is easier. Factions are a good thing. As long as the separation of interests does not turn into a separation of society.

The U.S Constitution

*steps on soapbox* *clears throat* *yells* "THE U.S CONSTITUTION IS THE COOLEST THING EVER. EVERYONE GO READ IT. I LOVE THE CONSTITUTION. 'MURICA." *steps off soapbox*

Anyways.

Let's review the preamble to the constitution.

We the people of the United States, in order to form a more perfect union, establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and our posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America.

The constitution puts checks and balances on powers in the government, mixes the forms of Government found within the Kyklos Cycle, and gives liberty and justice for all. The constitution is a rigid but forgiving document. It allows the people to keep their life, liberty, and property, yet still gives the government power. As a written constitution or law, it protects men against men, men against government, government against government. It makes our lives so much easier by allowing the legislative, executive or judicial branch to do it, but also gives us a civic duty and sense of national pride. That, in my opinion, is an indicator of a superior law and government. It gives each branch of government checks and balances on their power, allows the branches to put checks and balances of power on other branches, empowers the people, and creates an established and secure nation.

The U.S constitution is an inspired document from Heavenly Father. In D&C 101:77-80 it says 77 According to the laws and constitution of the people, which I have suffered to be established, and should be maintained for the rights and protection of all flesh, according to just and holy principles;

78 That every man may act in doctrine and principle pertaining to futurity, according to the moral agency which I have given unto him, that every man may be accountable for his own sins in the day of judgment.

79 Therefore, it is not right that any man should be in bondage one to another.

80 And for this purpose have I established the Constitution of this land, by the hands of wise men whom I raised up unto this very purpose, and redeemed the land by the shedding of blood.

In 1898, the Founding Fathers with George Washington at their head appeared to the LDS prophet Wilford Woodruff and demanded temple ordinances. 

The U.S constitution established a government where the right to exercise and the establishment of religion was listed as an inalienable right of the American people (the 1st Amendment). For thousands of years, the Lord had prepared the world for the restoration of the gospel, and the American Revolution and Constitutional Convention was one of the final events of this preparation. What good would it have done if the gospel was restored in a country where religious freedom was not protected? Very few countries at that time protected that right (shoutout to Switzerland). The constitution was written and America established for the restoration of the gospel. 

To summarize my feelings about the constitution, I will quote LDS prophet George Albert Smith when he said: "I am saying to you that to me, the Constitution of the United States of America is just as much from my Heavenly Father as the Ten Commandments."  

(All scriptures, quotes, and thoughts came from this article. I highly recommend reading it, LDS or not. It provides a great religious mixed with political perspective of the constitution. Plus some pretty cool facts about the founders and the stories behind the Constitutional Convention).

Although I learned so much more than what was written about in this post, these are my main takeaways from Government and Economics A. I encourage everyone to read and study the constitution to understand their rights as American citizens that way when you are called upon to make a change, you will be prepared and educated with the best supreme law - ever. 

Go out. Make a change. Learn. Live. Elevate.

Savannah

Live To Light and Love

In light of the recent Las Vegas shooting, I would like to add my two cents. Attacks like these are tragic, and they sadden me. But it's another thing when it occurs in the place you called home for 14 years.

LIVE to show people that there is still LIGHT and GOODNESS in the World. LIVE to show that there is BRAVERY and HONOR. LIVE to give people hope for the FUTURE. LIVE to inspire LOVE.

Live to love, and love like Christ.

Love,

Savannah

Regret

Take it from someone who knows.

Never pass up an opportunity to say "I love you" to someone you love. Because one day you'll be saying your last one and you'll regret the ones you didn't say.

A Silent Hallelujah

This post will be very vulnerable. Some of you will not agree with what you will read, but I ask of all to read with an open mind and empathy to the experience to which I am writing about.

Thank you.

A Silent Hallelujah

It had been a struggle to the top of the hill. It was early morning, and I was perspiring from the exercise. BYU Vocal Point played in my ears as I looked out over the view. A nice, big house on the left, and on the right, the majestic Lago Atitlan, with a stunning view of Volcan Atitlan and Toliman. I snapped a quick picture, then turned around, and started back down the Hill to return home. But then something stopped me. A surge. A surge of emotion that seemed to come from the depths of my soul. I turned around and returned to my spot on the hill. I took out my earbuds and did something that I hadn't done in a while. I listened. And then I felt. The numbness I had been applying broke and in came my heart. An incredible surge of sadness, joy, regret, excitement, passion, love, stress, and peace. The surge stung my eyes and made my heart ache. Suddenly, like a great wave, the memories from the last 2 1/2 years came crashing over me. I thought back to the beginning of Freshman year, and the crisis that I went through. I remembered the loss of most of my friends. I remembered my trip to Haiti and how much it changed me. I remembered joining debate and making WA friends for the first time. I remembered, with much joy, my first Elevation. I painfully remembered my first real move, to Costa Rica. I remember the hikes and the challenges.I remembered dancing in the kitchen, shooting Dad with a BB gun, making more friends through Williamsburg, the hours zooming. I remembered seeing Grandma and Grandpa again. Oh, how I love them! I remembered Lake Arenal, I remembered moving to Guatemala and "hanging out" with kids for the first time in months. I remembered seminary and muffins ad late nights. I remembered leaving home for two months, alone. I remembered Washington D.C., visiting Sam and Emily, the debate finals. I remembered the mountains of Provo, Utah. I remembered the homesickness. I remembered my 2nd and 3rd Elevation. I remembered coming home. I remembered the two Youth Groups in Guatemala. I remembered the Homestead and the tube. I remembered the Cultiva Group. I remembered passion and goodbyes. I remembered tears. I remembered the start of Junior Year. I remembered seeing the Jensens every day. Then, I felt all of that. All at once, a great roar in my ears. After that had cleared, I thought of my Savior, Jesus Christ. I thought of my slow, but steady, conversion process. I thought of my progress and faith. Then I thought of the majesty of Jesus Christ. Goosebumps chilled my body as I reflected on the power of the Atonement, the grandeur of the Planet Earth. I thought of Jesus Christ in my own life, and how hot he had heated the Refiner's Fire for me. Then I was still. A bird chirped. A dog barked. A car door slammed. There I stood, overlooking a magnificent lake. I listened, I felt. I thanked my God for everything. I thanked my God for my abundance. Then I was still once more. Slowly, almost imperceptibly, a silent hallelujah escaped my heart. It swelled and grew until it was like a Trumpet sounding. The silent hallelujah shook the Earth. Then all was quiet. I slowly turned around and started home. I arrived and continued my day as normal. But the silent hallelujah still echoed in my heart. It always will.

"Therefore, let your hearts be comforted concerning Zion, ... be still and know that I am God."

- D&C 101:16